I do not know where my life is headed and it is 100% alright.

Oh how I love to stick with my own plans (or at least have my own plans).

I like to know what I will be doing, when I need to be there, and how I am going to get there all in advance. 

I am all for spontaneous day trips and long drives with friends. Yet, when it comes to my future, I like to know what is just around the corner, or so I thought I did.

To be honest though, as we enter the new year (2017, when did you get here?), I have not a single clue what the next year holds. I do not know what state I will be living in this summer. I do not know where I will be living next school year. I do not know whether I am taking summer classes or not.

If someone were to ask, "where do you see yourself in five years?" I honestly do not think I would have an answer. The future is a really blurry line right now. I can not see any of it. 

For the time being, I am just giving God the steering wheel. Something I should have done a long time ago was dropped the planning. As much as it seemed like it was helping me, it was hurting me. The worrying, the planning, the stress, it is all a waste of time and now, I am no longer in the driver's seat.

So here I am Lord, take me where you need me. Send me. Sculpt me. Make me the person you need me to be. I do not know where I am headed, but with you in control I will gladly sit in the passenger seat and let the fog clear up as we go.

 

Shannon Haupert4 Comments